It’s during the conference deconstruct gender which she presented on Friday, France Daigle shared that while she continues to use herself as a feminine pronoun, she also identifies as a male.
For me personally, identification comes firstShe says.
It was always something I knew somewhereShe says.
un deux trois, puis, on finit par trouver le dessin. J’avais les points, mais les points étaient sans numéro.”,”text”:”C’était un dessin qu’on dessine avec les points, un deux trois, puis, on finit par trouver le dessin. J’avais les points, mais les points étaient sans numéro.”}}”>It was a drawing that you draw with the dots – one, two, three – and in the end you find the drawing. I had the dots but the dots weren’t numbered.
It took France Daigle 40 years to succeed
find his drawing.
Of course, the last decade has been more revealing than the others.‘ she emphasizes.
bon eh bien, qu’est ce qu’il y a là, au fond ?“,”text”:”Finalement, j’étais arrivé devant une sorte de mur, où je me disais bon eh bien, qu’est ce qu’il y a là, au fond ?”}}”>Finally I had arrived in front of a kind of wall where I said to myself well, well, what’s down there?
It was then that France Daigle decided to seek psychological services to better understand what was going on inside her.
Putting the numbers on the dots was an absolute necessityillustrates them.
She met a psychoanalyst who helped her a lot in her approach.
However, it was during a school reunion with students from upstate New Brunswick that France Daigle had something of an epiphany after interacting with young people and speakers. When he went to the crime scene as spokesperson, the roles were reversed for a moment.
Once there, I understood almost more things than I knew beforeShe says.
I was more shocked than the others.
From one to the other, their trans identity became clear.
Agoraphobia, literature and trans identity
In her work, France Daigle often dealt with the subject of agoraphobia, a disorder she suffers from.
With hindsight, she now sees the direct connection between her fear of public places and the trans identity she had not yet recognized in her at the time of writing her novels.
How could I be fine on the outside when I wasn’t fine on the inside?She says.
I understood well that I could not be comfortable, but I did not have the elements necessary to draw the portrait. […] It was in a way the obstacle for me to understand my life.
During an extended hiatus from writing, France Daigle points out that there is a connection between her awakening to her trans identity and the way she wrote her novels.
It was actually a construct of mine [ses romans]because I didn’t know how else to get thereShe says.
Somehow I always had the impression of writing with leftovers. I had pieces […]but I couldn’t take the big picture.
At this week’s Acadie Love Festival, France Daigle presented visual works made from pieces of wood sourced from a building she owned.
A symbolic approach to illustrate the reconstruction of gender that she experienced.
The 68-year-old France Daigle will have needed about forty years for the long road to self-discovery.
The author asserts that her trans identity has never been repressed, that she has
didn’t have the keys to understand it.
In her opinion, questions of trans identity in public space often revolve around man becoming a woman.
I hadn’t really found an answer to the woman feeling like a manShe explains.
I went ahead with all of that, but not like that day, where I met young people and speakers.
France Daigle points out that had she had this revelation earlier in her life, she might have considered sex reassignment surgery.
Without going under the knife at her age to avoid physically taxing her body, she now has a free spirit in the face of her trans identity.
I am happy and content to understand what is happening to me, freed, relievedShe says.
And I feel more normal as a trans than I’ve felt in the ordinariness of male-female people all my life.
However, there is still a lot to be done in society to save many people from suffering, says France Daigle.
I think it’s very important to educate young people about this.She says.
Our society is extremely gender specific […]. It’s all exploded a bit in the last five to ten years. It’s like a revolution even of genres and everything is possible and everyone can choose a bit according to their needs.
France Daigle now passes the torch:
: comment tu te sens? Sens-tu que tu es bien, toi, dans ton élément? C’est surtout ça.”,”text”:”l’éducation doit porter sur l’être: comment tu te sens? Sens-tu que tu es bien, toi, dans ton élément? C’est surtout ça.”}}”>Education should focus on: How do you feel? Do you feel comfortable, you, in your element? It usually is.
With information from the radio show Rush Hour – Acadie